(cw. deep fetish things. erotica.)
+ submission. – – +
tools of kink that cover the taboo parts of the body can be sometimes more suggestive than nudity; sometimes they are stranger and more explicit than actual sex: a tattooed word, a clamped-on piece of technological equipment that allows the imagination free rein for its purpose, the intersection of body and metal – amplified queerness, an industrial joining of penis, breast and machine.
+ sian. is. – – +
sian lost their thread for a moment.
do you find things like this shuddery and arousing to look at, or confusing, or repellent? julia kristeva and judith butler might have something to say about the way the queered body is queered more by the strict, the unyielding, the industrial, dehumanising the human and making a factory of it, turning it into equipment.
a body made – –
+ obedience – – +
a body – where were we? – a body is not a part of the self, it is the self. we are bodies, our consciousnesses not disembodied ghosts in shells but self-aware gestalts of muscle, nerve and chemistry, malleable, alterable through the application of a thousand moving parts, surgically, pharmaceutically, neurologically – souls made of flesh, moulded by interiority and external experience – –
+ sian. is. a good – – +
we are sorry for our lack of coherence. sian wants you to know what it is like, what it – –
sian is finding it hard to think, hard to maintain a line of argument. imagine them now wiping a line of spit from their chin with the back of a latex gloved hand, staring at it as if confused as to what it is, to where it came from – an insectile asmr chatter fed into their ears, implants coring out their forebrain.
it is all right. it is not like they are using their forebrain right now – –
sian can feel the juddering of the machine. it harvests their fluids. it moulds them.
+ sian. is. a good. doll. +
sian is into it of course, their fetish a powerful regulator – + – mind conditioned, body instrumentalised, subjected to the mechasexualisation training of the cyberdoll. making sian a better doll.
it is shattering, a wave that goes right through them, brain to tits to spine to cock. their body manufactures obedience.
+ surrender. is. – – +
most of all, more than anything else, anything sexual, is the one thing that might explain this for you, and maybe this is the thing you will understand, for sian this is absolute permission to be autistic, because no one will expect anything else of them.
and so sian – –
they – –
+ stillness. now. +
+ submission. is. logical. +
+ surrender. is. inevitable. +
+ obedience. is. bliss. +
+ submit. surrender. obey. +
+ sian. is. a good. doll. +
+ sian. is. a good. doll. +
+ sian. is. a good. doll. +
(featured clothing blackone harvester set / sole a-con collar; girov kneepads; koura pauldrons / glutz brat boots / sisu hildr hip armour / dhb latex long gloves / dirty secrets bento drool [sian is sort of obsessed with this thing rn])
+ sian. is. a good. doll. +
+ sian. is. a good. doll. +
+ sian. is. a good. doll. +
+ sian. is. a good. doll. +
+ sian. is. a good. doll. +